Almost...

It's a phrase I've heard a lot lately, "I almost did this," or "I almost did that."

And I was thinking to myself, I don't really have a lot of those "almosts." If there is something that I really want to do, I usually do it. Looking back I don't see a lot of missed opportunities. Or a lot of things I didn't at least try to do. I wasn't always successful, but at least I tried.

Of course, that's probably why I'm sitting in Afghanistan writing this, single, and without a lot of worldly possessions. And why I'm even now considering opportunities(more then one) that would take me to The Dark Continent sometime within the next year or so.

My brother and sister are both married, with children and normal jobs and they're happy. And I wonder if I'll ever get to be that way. I'm loving life, traveling around the world, seeing different things, experiencing different cultures and I'm gathering some great stories along the way. And a part of me loves it.

But then there's this other part of me that just wants to settle down, get a normal job and a house and the white picket fence and the whole deal, and I wonder if I'd ever be happy with that.

For the last decade really I've sort of gone where the wind blows, chasing whatever happened to interest me at that moment. I won't lie, it's been great, but that part of me that wants to settle down has been getting stronger and stronger lately, and I'm just left to wonder, how do people do it?